I know I know

Yes I know clearly that I'm one of the worse groupmate ever!

Every leader's nightmare.

I am a "fei-luar" (daniel and I's inside joke)

Please bear with me for a while. In the process of picking myself back up.

GREATEST REGRET EVER! Grouping with friends. now my friends are gonna hate me. I'm gonna be friendless. ='(

Its a freaking waste when people no longer wanna be friends with you anymore just because I'm the worse project group mate ever! but i know i'm not perfect, in fact i'm a person with A LOT of flaws. But i'm human.

Sorry world. I think i should be like another melissa. But then again it'll be damn sad cause honestly who will give a damn? its phoebe its phoebe i'll probably have like 20 fans? who'll miss my nonsense and not what i would have been able to contribute to the world with my "talents" and all. When others in the world whos nice, pretty, and multi-talented. I'm starting to doubt myself.

Is there anyone out there who still have faith in me? hmmm? I have myself to blame. seriously just myself to blame.

Now I miss you

I came across our old photos together and i remembered how i had 2 chances to hug you but then it never happen.

Was out with you a couple of times and how i wanted to just grab your hands, but then it never happen.

I was sharing ice cream with you on that special day and you were so close i wish i could lean on you, but it never happen.

we are a beautiful mess

a few reasons why i just have to blog this entry after a supercalifragilisticexpialidociously long time:

1) I went Clubbing for the 1st time! okay more like a party but its still 1st time going to a club, THANKS LIZZY!
2) My 18th Bday family photos with mum and tiny are up

On my 18th Birthday this year my mum book this photoshoot thingy kinda as my present. though its mostly on our dearest "tiny" but we sure had fun throughout though it was rather awkward at first for me as its kinda like the 1st photoshoot i have ever since those nude and gay baby photoshoot i took eons ago! i've made some scan on them. and here are the photos from the photoshoot too!

this was when i was a month old; haha unglam nude shoots!

This was when i was 1?

18th Birthday photoshoot!

We do really retarded things when we're bored. and yes we were to bored waiting for ms SUE LOH! forever talking to mr steven ng! and thats the photos of the scrapcard i made for lizzy too!

A trip to cold storage at the holland v outlet as it was the only 24 hours store. i missed a stop and it took me around 45 mins to walk back! WTH right! moronic me! ARGH. went to cold storage just because mascarpone cheese could only be found there. bought all my ingredients to bake the perfect tiramisu for lizzy's bday (not actual) but at least it was the party night! i stayed up all night baking and doing my research for comm skills (but i screwed it up eventually by losing my notes!)

And now for my very first clubbing experience! it was surprisingly really fun to get high and just dance! though i didn't rely on alcohol to get high that night. thanks to liz's sista, we got a table and vip stamps! aww we all felt so damn special that night~ and to my surprise! i met justin and zhuo wei there! and i was surprised not only cause they were there but we were both there for the same party! thats cause justin knew Laura! church friends i think? yea i got to know new friends like kimberly, joy, and Zimu. I just mentioned those people i actually did talk to, though there were a few others there i didnt say much to them =( too shy! HAHAHHA!



I realised there isn't a need to blog about my whereabouts or my everyday happenings as its tiring and rather unnecessary, so i'll just blog only when there something worthy to blog about!