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HEY EVERYBODY~

i think i just got bored of blogger.
so i'll be using my livejournal for now.
BUT perhaps not for long!

MY LIVEJOURNAL

OVER dued

some overdued photos that i have yet to update!

HAHA
xiao yan stayed over at my place when my mum was in taiwan for the last day
we ate lotsa cup noodles
talk crap
watched tv
blogshopped
usual camwhorings

While staying at my auntie's place,
had alot fun with my cousin, KYN
now i know he is also a camwhorer!
HAHAHHA

you don't know

Yea some updates!

school has officially ended but this states the start of the crazy examssssss!
anw the last day where we had class together for the last time was FRIDAY, 13th Febraury!
took alot of photos and all!

Anyway, its been almost a week that i'm staying here at my auntie's house and shes damn nice luh! When i'm a mother someday i hope i can be like her!
Did some baking and taught my cousin how to do he's homework!
[Its seriously damn though to teach a kid to study]
sighhhhh
But now i was deciding to go back like today? cause i'm having 2 papers on this FRIDAY!
AND i havent even started studying!?!?! OMGOMGOMG
so anw, i'll try studying like now? this afternoon? then if its productive,
i'll just stay on? if not i'll just go back today.


Let me tell you that i'm so in love with Charlotte Russe?
I wanna get so much stuffffffffff!
tell me which to get and which not to or just get all!?




AND to add on, Remember everyone got a small valentine note from each of our classmate on this coloured paper?
I'm truly touched and happy about this idea!
who was the one who came out with this idea!?

Though everything was great, i still have something i'm unhappy about during the last day of school, and something i was extremely happy on thursday.
ALL this is either gonna be blogged in my old private blog or be dumped in my diary!
HAHAHAH
but you little piece of FAKE PERFECTION!
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!

you are nice, but too nice it seems fake at times
maybe i'm jealous or just envious
BUT i still hate you
you took my friends
somehow?
through your gentle comforting words,
your ways of thoughtfulness
your irritating-ness at times which people thinks its cute
And me which is totally opposite of you
do NOT have a very thoughtful personality
DO NOT know how to comfort people with words, LIKE YOU DO
thus, friends that was once mine appreciate you more!
i know thats nth wrong but still
I HATE YOU!
stop being such an angel
shielding others when i'm arguing them
letting me be in a difficult position?
and claiming you're just telling me whats right?
OMG SERIOUSLY
you're nice but don't be too nice!
its freaky
and please DO NOT try to be nice at the wrong time
it totally DISGUST ME
your actions
your face
how you can't handle someone you actually like
why must you act so disgustingly when its obvious you like him
i'm not asking you to admit it to him
but dont express your shit in such disgusting ways alright

YOU DONT HAVE TO KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING
SO AS LONG I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE
AND I WANNA VENT ALL THIS SHIT
SO CHOOSE TO IGNORE IF U WANT!




and specifically for all my dear friends out of LOVE:

LOVE HURTS

Love, it hurts some how you just can't get enough of the same hurt
you just pick up the broken pieces
and go back for more
until there are no more pieces to break

I know this doesnt seem like some word of encouragement at all.
BUT i hope it enlightens you all like it did to me
cause why keep getting hurt?
and we all seem like we don't mind
cause we love that person truck loads?
I don't see whats so worth it as life is worth much more!
and live life while we're still young!
anw i HOPE YOU GUYS ARE HAPPY ALRIGHTS!

Bitter Sweet Poetry

WARNING! this would be a extremely long post with lotsa photos and ranting!

Firstly, it was Amandal's Surprise Birthday Party Today! so straight after OB tutorial, Maria, Dev, Candice, Morg and I all rush down to his house by Cab. didnt cost as much as i expected it to be though. [phew]
He's house has to dogs one "xiao-hei" and the other is "fridayz" i emphasize its with the ZZZ HAHAHA
what random names for a pet.

i'll stop crappin' and view the photos!



We were in the cab and i swear this is the coolest cabbie i've came across!.. he could speak so many languages!
linguistic man indeed

Stefan was like freaking lame walking around when i gave cue for a group shot!
so like many shots were interrupted! but it was funny!



YAY! group photo with birthday girl! HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY AMANDAL!

SERIOUSLY, the 3 girls were CAMWHORERS! they wanted to keep posing
but my cam batt was running low initially so not much photos today

RANDOM moments, maria was such a "Good" photographer!
Nah i was kidding... was really impressed that you could get 4 of us in one of the photo! -HUGS-

Banners, candles, decors and all were all put up by marcella, eilise, denise and dionne before the sun goes down! HAHA it wasnt easy.
AND they GAMBLED GAMBLED GAMBLED. blackjack i think?

morgan had like 6 of this "SURVIVORS" torches which were like damn cool!
so romantic eh? building up all the atmosphere for amandal's party!
guess everything went out well. Though most of us were not familiar with their friends so were kinda hiding at one corner.. HAHA

Love you guys..

To continue...

I freaking quarreled with my mum today, a violent one.
I know i know you guys are so gonna think like why am i so unfilial and all
BUT

she really pissed me off this time! i said before, i can tolerate her so as long as she don't irritate and get on my nerve!
if you nag, the most i'll be annoyed
but she freaking hit my head damn hard just because of the word "shut-up"
its not like the first the i've said it.. and she has this bad habit of pushing blames to others
when its totally all her fault?
is it my fault that she learned how to function the com and forgets?
is it my fault that she has to ask others for IT help and blame me for not helping her since shes not learning?
I cant help her all her life and i think she should seriously start learning everything she thinks is important to her, HERSELF!
and stop relying and always pushing blames to others!
and when we quarrel she'll always call daddy and make me sound like i'm totally in the wrong!
SHIT HER! can't she freaking learn to be independent and STOP relying on others
for things that she herself can handle!
I BROKE A BOWL TODAY
thats cause i was freaking mad at how hard she hit my head and still think its okay that shes doing that
my head was so freaking RED can? i think if she hit a little harder it would just BLEED!
she keeps shouting and emphasizing that shes the mum so she can do anything she wants
EVEN if its HITTING ME?
FUCK YOU!
i'm human not a freaking punching bag!
so i will tend to retaliate! ARGHH
sometimes i so feel like killing her [i dont mean like real KILL KILL but just a description to HOW ANGRY I AM NOW!]
and she just wouldn't stop threatening me to move out everytime we quarrel!
F you... who do you think u are?
even though you bought this house, but since you've given birth to me
i guess its your responsibility of providing me shelter while i cant afford one!
and since daddy cant take care of me
then stop pushing me away like i'm a burden! or like whatever
i'm not a "IT" that can be pushed around!
I scolded lotsa vulgarity at her today too!
i know what you people will think again
BUT if she was YOUR mum
I BET YOU WOULD DO THE SAME!
whatever FUCK you !!!!!!!!!

Are you human?

When i was scared, You didn't call
When i was bored, You can't be bothered
When i needed to talk to someone, You couldn't answer

Sometimes i feel you're like a non-living thing
...Living in a different dimension of this world!
Sometimes i think you're OGLY
...But i couldn't care less, Cause you're too nice! (not to me, but just nice alright)

Sometimes i wish you would do more
... So i could like you more
You're too on and off.. and i'm dosing off soon AGAIN!
and valentines day's coming and i'm gonna be alone again
i'm okay since it has always been this way..

OKAY BYE RANDOM-NESS!